how (my) riven views herself.

“counted dead by noxus, she saw an opportunity to start anew. she shattered her sword, severing ties with the past, and wandered in self-imposed exile — on a quest to seek atonement and a way to save the pure noxian vision in which she believed.”  —  ( x )

that excerpt is probably one of the most important and integral elements of my intention and portrayal of riven as a whole. at current (or rather where she stands in the now versus her ‘past self’) in my portrayal? she is figuring herself out, she sees herself as someone new, someone without a home… and in that? she sees herself as a bit of a nobody, but in no truly negative sense — it would just easily be misunderstood because of common intention with such a remark.

legitimately, if someone were to ask who she was? she would likely do one of three things: 1.) give no name; 2.) respond with ‘i am no one’; or 3.) respond with ‘it doesn’t matter’… or something similar to any of these. and mostly? she means it in the context that no matter how much noxian pride still lingers, no matter how much being a warrior remains in her blood? she doesn’t know who she wants to be, or what. she has ideals and hopes for noxus, to make it better, to make it something else…

but she does not know to get there. she’s working on that and herself in the process.

darknetexclusivetouhouterrorcore:

if i could swing a really big sword it wouldnt even matter if anyone loved me or not